I have been silent for a long time. Keep trying not to listen to what I think, even if I never say it, it haunts me. I don't know who I am anymore. I rarely go out. I rarely talk to anyone. No one calls. Walking to the kitchen is work. I just wish I would disappear.
The silence is deafening as in "Rewind."
My children both briefly visited me this summer. That changed things. Not how they act or keep in touch with me, that has not changed. I am sure I matter to them. They both love me. As I am, I am not wanted in their lives.
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